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"Vincent van Gogh ate yellow paint..."

There is a story that romanticizes Vincent van Gogh eating yellow paint because he thought it would make him happy. While this is untrue and no one should eat paint, I like the idea behind it. I believe there is something out there for everyone -- something that makes them light up from the inside out. This blog is dedicated to helping you hone in on what makes YOU light up.



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Learning to love yourself, boost your happiness, and find time to pursue your many talents.

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Honing your craft, improving your productivity, and organizing your systems.

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Putting it all together by working to find the balance between who you are, what you love, and your obligations to the world.

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Stop Letting What You're Good at Hold You Back from What You're Not


Have you ever experienced a state of being in which you wait for things to come naturally to you, to the point where if they don't, you either avoid it altogether or get extremely frustrated trying?

Storytime

I have always been good at the things I do.

When I was taking ballet classes, I was at the top of my class. Now that I'm back into piano again, I've been flying through books, catching on to music pieces faster than my teacher anticipated. I'm really good at Tetris and baking desserts people enjoy.

But.

You see, the thing is, I'm good at the things I do not just because I enjoy them. But because I don't like to do the things I'm NOT good at.

For example. A few years back when I was attending my youth group and spending practically the whole of my Sunday at church, I distinctly remember the games we would play. They weren't just any games, though. They were...

Sports games.

*cue horror music*

At the time I couldn't catch a ball for the life of me, let alone run and catch or throw or dodge. That just wasn't me. (Still isn't but I'm not as drastically horrible now.) So instead of looking stupid in front of a crowd of teenagers who I already felt hated me (that was the anxiety talking), I sat out.

Every. Single. Time.

I refrained from trying something to spare myself from feeling embarrassed or looking silly.


That is letting your comfort zone take over.

What is this rooted in?

Fear.

Fear of looking stupid. Fear of FEELING stupid, getting laughed at, or being rejected. So rather than risk trying something and publicly failing, many of us simply don't try at all. Because it's one thing to close your bedroom door and dance around in your jammies to your favorite songs. It's another thing to stand before a line of judges and pressure yourself to show them your best.

Or whatever situation you may find yourself in.

For me, in my life currently, it's been my ASL class. Almost every class we have to stand up and sign before our group about each other as part of a class exercise. And each time I hate it because I don't like walking into a situation unprepared. I've never been good at thinking on my feet, let alone signing something new in front of a group of people and two teachers staring at me, prepared to correct me. It's harrowing.

It's uncomfortable.

And yet I continue to attend each class. I continue to have my shaking legs bring me up to the front of the room so my shaky hands can sign while my face heats up with a bright red blush.

I'm not great at signing. I'm still learning. Despite this process of learning being the most uncomfortable I have experienced for a while, and despite that I sometimes dread attending class...

I love it.

I love that I can communicate with Deaf people, even if it's to a small degree. I love that I can teach my siblings signs and have a good laugh about it with them. I even love attending ASL lab hours to learn vocab and play games with more advanced students.

Is there something like this is your life? Something you weren't good at but pushed through anyway?

Or have you been able to walk away every time?

I wish I could say there was an easy, one-step fix.

I wish I could take away this uncomfortable feeling you have to bear.

But it's not that simple. I can't declare a remedy that fits all situations and all lives. I can't even fix this for you.

So instead, I've made you aware.

Perhaps the trick is not letting what you're good at or bad at become what identifies your worth. Our abilities do not determine what we mean or how bright we can shine.

Do you stick to the things you're good at in order to avoid embarrassment? I'm talking about extreme cases here. It's one thing to be in a group project and assigned a task that fits your skill set. I'm referring to if you go out of your way to avoid certain scenarios because you feel like you can't handle the pain of what other people might think of you or to avoid embarrassment.

How will you get better at the things you're not so good at?

My Favorite Fall Recipes

Rosie, when did you become a food blogger?

That's a very good question, friend. Since fall is in full swing and I have a secret passion for making magical food creations, I thought I would take a break from constant improvement and share some super easy recipes for when you're ready to fully embrace this moody time of the year. These are recipes I make pretty consistently because I love them that much (and because they're just that easy). They're also very versatile, so if something isn't to your taste, you can switch things up or use what's available to you. That's the beauty of making yummy treats. :)

Fried Apples

What you'll need:
  • Your favorite apples
  • 2 tablespoons of butter
  • Cinnamon to taste

What to do:

  1. Put a skillet on the stove top and turn the burner up to medium heat. Throw about 2 tablespoons of butter in to melt while you are preparing your apples.
  2. Rinse, peel, cut, and core your apples. Then chopped them up to your preferred size. I like mine a bit smaller so they're easier to pop into the mouth, but you could go for full slices or apple nuggets.
  3. Throw your chopped apples into the pan with the butter and stir. Keep cooking until your apples begin to soften and soak up the butter.
  4. Add your preferred amount of cinnamon (I add a few dashes) and stir your apples. Keep cooking until they are soft and warm.
  5. Dish your apples out and enjoy!

Pumpkin Spice Chai Tea Latte

What you'll need:
  • Pre-made chai tea -- OR you can steep bags of chai tea as well
  • Pumpkin spice creamer

What to do:

  1. Heat your pre-made chai in a pan on the stove.
  2. Once to the desired heat, stir in your pumpkin spice creamer.
It's as simple as that! For a cold option, you can simply refrigerate your tea, pour it into a glass, and then add the creamer. :)

Apple Breakfast Bread (Recipe from AllRecipes)

What you'll need:
  • 1/2 cup butter
  • 1 cup sugar
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
  • 2 apples - peeled, cored and chopped

What to do:
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Lightly grease an 8x4 inch loaf pan.
  2. In a bowl, mix the butter and sugar until smooth and creamy. Beat in the eggs.
  3. In a separate bowl, sift together the flour, baking soda, salt, cinnamon, and cloves. Mix into the butter mixture until moistened. Fold in the apples. Transfer to the prepared loaf pan.
  4. Bake 1 hour in the preheated oven, until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean. Cool in the pan for 15 minutes before removing to a wire rack to cool completely.
I made this the other day and my family LOVED it. Has a perfect balance of spice and sweetness, and the texture of the bread is fluffy. :)

What are your favorite fall recipes?


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How to Read MORE (even if you "don't have time")

My goal this year was to read 26 books.

That's one book every two weeks, and I decided this would be more than enough, especially with my packed schedule. However, so far this year I have read 47 books (181% of my goal). Yet I've been doing more lately and packing as much into my time as possible.

Today I am going to share my secret sauce of how I read more, even when I don't have time.

^ Why does that sound like a sketchy read-more-quick scheme? O_o

1. Audiobooks

I used to listen to audiobooks all the time. While you may still prefer physical books, if you want to read more, you learn not to be picky. Especially if the voice actor is really good.

What's even better is that you can sometimes put the audio on 1.25 to 2x speed and it will take you much less time to listen to the book -- as long as you can understand the human voice on fast forward. XD

2. Read during your commute

This ties in with number one if you're the driver. You can play your audiobook in your car, or, if you are the passenger, you can listen or read as you travel. My family used to do this all the time when we would travel to activities together. Some of our best memories are from reading/listening to books on long drives.

While reading on the commute may mean sacrificing a few minutes of social time on the bus, or kindly telling people you want to read at that time, take into consideration how much humans travel. Even if it's thirty minutes to get someplace, it's thirty minutes to get back home. Which is an hour a day and seven hours a week and 365 hours a year. Do you see what I'm saying? Use this time, friend. Make the most of it by feeding your brain and soul. <3

3. Simplify the goal

Telling yourself to read 52 books in a year seems a bit daunting, doesn't it? Even telling yourself "I must read one book a week" can be stressful. But when you break it down and say "I'm going to read ten pages a day", it gets a lot easier to sit down and open the book. (And most of the time, it read more than ten pages anyway!)

Here's the super secret step that has helped me skyrocket passed my reading goal this year:

4. Read what you enjoy

Sometimes we think we have to read what everyone else is reading, even if it makes us want to rip our hair out. Just because To All the Boys I Loved Before came out as a movie, you don't have to read the books (though I would recommend it!). They're not for everyone.

I've read so much this year because I've made the choice to read whatever I want to read. Even if it looks like I'm reading sketchy manga. ;)

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These are my super simple action steps to reading more. Is there anything I missed? Any tips you have that have helped you read more? Please leave a comment below. This post was geared toward reading more leisurely books, but what about blog posts? Non-fiction? School books? Have anything to add in those areas? :)

How will you read more?


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My Mental Health Morning Routine

I used to be that person who woke up and went at the day full force.

Now I have a systematic approach to help me save time and hone in on what I need to accomplish each day. Is it a perfect system? No. But it works for me and I thought I would share it with you guys today. :)

The benefits of a morning routine

  • Going through the same steps each morning will help your body and mind wake up.
  • Instead of stumbling out of bed and feeling overwhelmed by what you should do first, taking the time to go through your routine can calm you down and get you focused.
  • The morning is the prime time to take care of yourself and spend a few minutes working on a project before you lose all your energy.
  • Small healthy habits compounded over time will produce huge benefits.

My morning routine:

1. Rise early (equals get to bed early)

This semester I have made it my goal to get out of bed by 6:30am. I'm lenient with this goal, because I would rather sacrifice an additional few hours by gaining some extra sleep than lose a whole day by going through it bleary eyed and exhausted. But the point is still there.

Try to get up earlier than you want to.

Fight back against your flesh and take control of your body. You can use this extra time to take care of yourself and increase your productivity.

2. Drink water and eat breakfast

This has been said time and time again: Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. There was a time when I skipped breakfast and the mornings never ended well. I was always hungry long before lunch, which meant I would choose an unhealthy snack to hold me over, which in turn didn't equip my body with enough energy so I'd turn to coffee... Do you see the downward spiral?

Take the time to eat, friend. Even if it's something small. Fuel your body so you can conquer your day!

My personal favorite breakfast right now is a plain toasted bagel with cream cheese and strawberry jelly. It's sweet and salty and really easy to make.

3. Shower/wash face

Taking care of your skin is super important! Especially if you have sensitive/acne prone skin like myself. When I wash up in the morning, it's easier to wake up, control my bedhead, and feel good about myself because I've washed away yesterday and entered into today.

Do you have a skin care routine? Let me know in the comments below!

4. Quiet time

I like to set aside 10 to 20 minutes to journal it out and focus on a scripture really sets the tone for my day. Somedays it's easier to focus than others, but it really helps to journal out my thoughts and work through anything I'm feeling before turning to focus on school or whatever the day holds.

My favorite scripture:

1 Peter 5:7, "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you"

5. Worship Music

I have a playlist on Spotify I call Determination because I am determined not to let the negative voices in my head win out. These are the power praise songs that I adore, and I try to only add songs that really move my heart, turning my focus to Jesus.

Follow my Determination playlist here


One more thing: Find what works best for you.

I've tried doing other things in the morning, like making massive to-do lists, spending time on a project, and doing a daily clean, but I slowly removed these habits because they became overwhelming or quickly became unnecessary. You will have to go through a little bit of trial and error to find out what works best for you. It's all about how much time you have, the habits you want to enforce, and what helps you focus us.

I hope my morning routine will be a helpful template and perhaps spark some creative ideas of what to do tomorrow morning.

Action step: Write down one thing you're going to try adding to your morning routine tomorrow.

How will you make the most of your mornings?

You Can Be Good at Something and Yet Not Pursue It

I'm sure you know lots of people who just have a knack for certain things.

Like your friend Remy, who can talk the ear off of someone (in a good way!) by always have a passion for the topic the conversation is about. Or Isaiah and his way of encouraging people.

Or the Queens of the Internet: Instagram Queen, Journaling Queen, Writing Help Queen, Witty Character Queen, and more.

But what if they didn't LIKE doing those things?


What if their heart wasn't in it?

In my long professional time as a blogger, I've seen many rise and fall. A lot of my favorite people and content producers kept throwing mind-boggling stuff at me until--whoa, wait a minute.

It's been 18 months since their last post?

Their corner of the world went silent. Why? Because even though they were amazing at what they did, eventually their heart was no longer in it. Life called them on to something else.

It's taken me a long time to understand that people can be good at things and still not want to do them. I'm not talking about being good at cleaning* or filing papers or things that could easily be turned into chores -- though they count too. I'm leaning more toward talents that seem like they were a blessing from God above.

* I love cleaning. Cleaning is part of my self-love time, no joke.
Take Kate from Clover and Dot for example. An ah-mazing up and coming blogger / YouTuber in 2015. But it's been over a year since she last published anything. Then after I did some Internet stalking, I found out she designs stickers.

What do I think happened? (This is pieced together through guesswork and great detective skills.) I think Kate loved creating content. She was great at it too! She had the right aesthetic, vibe, and skill set. She had the equipment. But it wasn't fulfilling something deep inside. Now when she was designing her site and offering her services to other people, that felt good. But it wasn't quite it either. She realized headers and buttons were her thing. Little clip art that made people laugh or smile or think. She followed her heart and started creating in the way that she was not only good at, but made her feel good.

Is there something in your life that's like this? An area where people have complimented you time and time again but you can only half-smile because you don't really feel it? Something that used to bring you joy and you've developed a skill for it, but now it's a burden?

I urge you to step away from that thing, friend. Broaden your horizons. Use what used to light you up to find something new.

Remember, just because you're good at something, it doesn't mean you HAVE to keep doing it.

Is there something you're good at that you're going to STOP doing?

How to Love Life Despite Not Being Famous, Rich, or Having Oodles of Followers



Sidenote before we begin: This is a message for myself. I have been living in a fixed, self-pitying mindset lately and in order to calm myself down, I decided to write this. I hope this helps you, too.

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I have this condition. It's called Yearning.

Yearning is a secret wish hidden so deep within one's self that you're afraid to let anyone else know about it. It's that thing that you consistently notice about other people, and if someone points out you don't have it, you may blow up about it -- and then later blame it on someone else.

My yearning is for numbers.

I have always had this top secret wish to become one of those popular Tumblr blogs that don't have a face but do have over 100k followers. Or a singer who get so big on YouTube she gets recognized by a big label and swept off onto world tours. A beauty vlogger that eventually launches her own makeup line, an author who skyrockets to the top of the bestsellers lists, or an inventor who creates something so stupidly amazing, it sells out.

And so on.

Even when I got into blogging I thought it would be easy and people would just flock to me in instantaneous adoration. [Because who couldn't love this, right?]

Then in stepped Reality.

It was like a slap in the face when I realized that's not how things work. Internet fame is a rare occurrence. It takes social energy and a whole lot of charm.

Things I don't have. Because I'm introverted and, well, quirky. And quiet. *

And that's okay. But I didn't always think it was.

* This isn't to say that introverts or anyone else for that matter can't be Internet famous. There happen to be lots of introverted, awkward and/or quiet people out there who attract tons of fans.

This is something I have struggled with on and off for several years. To the point where I would cry into my pillow at night, questioning my worth. I would obsess over my Instagram, following and unfollowing, going on liking sprees and commenting more empty emojis than emotionally charged messages.

It was... sick.

And really sad.

Because people could see right through me. Just like I can see through other people who are like that: fake and trying just a little too hard. Not only that, it's taken me a long time to recover from trying to please everyone and be everything. I still slip back into it and catch myself Yearning. Wishing and guilt tripping and hating and questioning why I don't have more.


In order to have more, you need to be more.

This post is more for me than it is for anyone else, but I love to share my lessons because there's always that little chance that it will help someone. So if you happen to Yearn or just want to feel a little brighter in this dark world, I hope this helps. <3

1. You are enough.

There's nothing wrong with you or the place you're at in your life. There's nothing holding you back from being your best, most amazing self. In fact, I bet there are many who think you are dah BOMB.

(Because you are.)

But sometimes it's so hard for us to feel like we're the bomb. We forget that it's awesome we can do some of the things we do. We have hidden talents that we think others have too, but in reality, not everyone can code websites, understand historical texts or get quite as lit up when political issues come into play.

Not like you, my friend.

Every day I find out that "normal" isn't actually normal. People like weird things. We all have our quirks. And despite striving so hard to blend in, we are meant to stand out. To shine!

2. This time is about finding out where your path will lead you.

When I say "this time" I really mean all the time. The entire time you're alive, you're walking a path. Sometimes crawling. But you're moving. Even it's backward, you're moving.

I tend to worry about my "progress" in the world and where I'm headed. But as my mother said to me recently, "Just enjoy the process." We have to remember that, friend. Instead of focusing on getting ahead or constantly moving, why don't we take the time to look at where we are and actually like it?


3. Take it one day at a time.

Or if things really suck, take it one battle at a time. One breath at a time.

When you're overwhelmed, get some sleep. Nothing ever seems too bad the next morning after a nice long rest.


4. You are not, in fact, doomed.

I refer to those thoughts that whisper, everyone else has/can/is ___, and yet you lack. I guess your destiny isn't what you thought it would be. You're not who you thought you were meant to be.

These are sticky, icky thoughts that don't leave the best feeling in your stomach (or the rest of your body).

I also refer to your panic attacks, anxiety attacks, and your fears. Those things that haunt you. The pieces of yourself that you look at and feel are too mangled for anyone to love.

I'm here to tell you that they're false sources of information that need to be shut off.
Make the conscious choice to fight back against these thoughts. That's not true. I have more than enough. I am headed the right way. My destiny is what I make it. I know it seems like EVERYONE goes on about stopping negative self-talk. So you try, but it's MUCH easier said than done. You feel like giving up. I mean, who cares? It's not like your thoughts are hurting you or anything.

WRONG.

They are! I found out recently that every thought causes a chemical reaction in our brain. Because our brains are made up of cells that send signals to one another, your thoughts are basically signals pinged through your skull (not exactly but you get the gist). And those pings can cause a whole lot of damage. Stop this damage by stopping those thoughts! It will take a lot of work, but isn't it a lot of work you talk yourself back up to positivity? Isn't it a lot of work to feel bad about yourself ALL THE TIME? Isn't it a lot of work to throw all those pity parties?

You can choose to change today.


5. You don't understand their situation. Heck, you probably don't even understand your own right now.

So why are you comparing where you are to where she is? Because it's normal. But if you keep it up, it's going to destroy you.

When you find yourself envying, coveting or comparing, remember to take a step back and remind yourself that you are on your own path. You are where you're meant to be.

And don't be afraid to be a little selfish and say, "I need to focus more on me right now." *

* Also applicable to number 6 [below].

6. You know, if there's something that's making you unhappy, you're allowed to change it.

Even if it's a commitment. Finish it out like you said you would, and then next time say "no". Don't let 'em guilt trip you. If you're destroying yourself for someone else it's not healthy.

7. Try new things.

Now that you have some free time thanks to saying no and releasing those commitments that weighed you down, sign up for something. Anything. Piano lessons, vocal lessons, a writing workshop, a modeling deal--anything. If it's something you've been meaning to do, like participate in a walkathon for your favorite charity, DO IT! Don't be afraid to spend money on yourself (or even ask your parents to invest in you).


8. Continue to smile at people despite when they give you that "I want to punch every living thing in the face" vibe.

Some people just prefer to be unhappy (hence the Trolls movie). Don't let their vibe ruin your day. Keep smiling!

9. Go for a walk.

Get some blood flowing in your body and brain! Take this chance to marvel at the world. Don't look at the ground -- look at the sky. The trees. God's handiwork (your amazing self included).

10. Hang out with your close friends and spill your guts to them.

And if you feel like you don't have any friends, talking to your mom. Your sister. Your pet. Even me! I get emails all the time from young girls asking for advice or just looking for friendship. Don't be afraid to reach out (to anyone). Believe it or not, many humans are capable of empathy and compassion. When you open your eyes, you will see that there so many people out there who want to help.

11. Take your vitamins (pronounced: Vit-ah-minz).

If you're struggling with depression, repetitive thoughts, anxiety, or something else, chances are there is a supplement out there that may benefit you. Now I'm not a doctor, so I can't prescribe anything to you, but I can suggest you mention it to your own doctor. Bring up how you're struggling with him/her and ask if there's a way you can help your body fight it off.

12. Plan a trip.

Go! Explore the world God created for us. Even if that means going to a park or visiting a new restaurant a few blocks from your house.

13. Write about it.

Journaling has always helped me. There's no specific way or rules. Just write about you feel and go from there.

14. Stop worrying so much about other people! You are you, they are them and we all live in this world to pursue our passions, lend a helping hand and conquer our personal demons.

15. You are where you're supposed to be. I promise.

You feel behind. You feel like you should be a Somebody by now. But if that's not where you are now, that doesn't mean you'll never get there. You just have a few more things to do. Prepare yourself and remember to enjoy the journey (#2, above).

16. So what?

So what if you fail? So what if you look silly or fall flat on your face? Which will hurt worse -- that fact that you tried and didn't do it perfectly, or the fact that you didn't do it at all?

Which is worse?

Things that help me combat Yearning, comparison, and lack of luster in my life:

  • Taking a nice, good long break from all forms of social media, especially Instagram.
  • Long crying sessions.
  • Personal pep talks (if you want, I can give you one!)
  • Digging deep to find out what the REAL problem is.
  • Asking and working out solutions/action steps to the following: What thoughts am I stuck on? Where do I want to give up? How close am I to the finish line?
  • Remembering that my life is what I make it out to be. Sucess is something I define. Things like being "pretty" or "rich" are personal definitions, not the world's.
  • Talking to someone who loves me and knows what to say.
  • Reminding myself that I don't have to try so hard.
  • You are enough. Know this so deeply.

TL; DR - You are okay, just the way you are.

Did I miss anything? What do you do that makes you love life?


Why You Should Speak Up (In a World Full of Noise)

Today marks the end of my seventh year of blogging.

It's odd. I can remember reading posts by other bloggers in which they announced their journeys of three, five, or even ten years of blogging and my reaction to that.

I could never see myself blogging for so long. There was no way!

And yet I'm still kicking! *karate chops air* These seven years have been quite the adventure. I started out in the American Girl doll niche (a past passion) and now I'm writing about creativity, productivity, and making life what we want it to be (my current passion). So I guess it's true that people change and you have to go through a lot of trial and error to find yourself. That's lesson number one, friend. Make mistakes.

But instead of going over my blogging lessons, I thought today I would dig down to the core of why I blog. Why you blog. Why hundreds of thousands of people sit down and type away to publish something on the Internet.

I mean, why do we blog? Lots of people blog.

There are a CRAZY amount of bloggers, all writing about different things. Yet even when we look at the specific categories of blogging -- mommy blogs, art blogs, blogs about blogs, etc. -- there are still so many people shouting out their take on their niche. Some may even go so far as to say it's overcrowded and newcomers to the game will just drown.

There's a lot of noise on the Internet and in the blogosphere. A lot of half-finished, low effort, trying to get rich quick schemes that we witness every day. It gets tiring. Why would we want to contribute to that? Will people even hear us?

Why do we do it?

Why do we scream out when there is already so much noise in the world?

The same reason we post on social media where there are millions of others doing the same thing.

The same reason we publish chapters of our story on Wattpad when there are thousands doing the same thing.

The same reason we try out for sports or sing a song or open the door for another person.

We all long to be heard.

We long to be seen. Because being recognized in this noisy world is an achievement. It may seem impossible, but nothing is so.

We long to share what we create.

We are people and people love two things: creating and community. Blogging brings those two things together so that we can express ourselves for others to see.

We long to find our people.

No matter how unique the topics you write about are, there will always be someone out there willing to read it. I read something somewhere one time that when we were a kids, our mother's would tell us "you're one in a million" -- and if that's a true statistic, then that means there are at least 7,000 other people on the Earth like you...

We long to share ourselves.

...and yet your voice is distinctly your own. Your experiences are yours alone and your perspective is unlike anyone else's.

I believe in speaking up, even when it seems no one is listening. Because if you reach out, there is always going to be someone who reaches back.

You have something to offer to the world.

That's why you should speak up in a world full of noise.

A lesson God has taught me through blogging is that even if your blog reaches one person, that person is important. They recognize something that you perhaps don't -- that you're worthy of being listened to.