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How to Thrive in Intimidating Situations and Embrace Your Fear


Babies are born with two natural fears.

The first is the fear of falling.

The second is loud noises.

This means that every other fear you have, you learned because through a bad experience, 

I've been afraid most of my life.

At one point, I couldn't even admit that to myself because I was so afraid. People scared me. Relationships hurt me. Failure made me cave at the knees and weep.

For a long time, I thought that I couldn't write college level papers or handle a schedule full of classes + assignments + studying + my own creative projects. After graduating from high school, I took a gap year. This gap year wasn't extravagant. I didn't do much exploring through the country, but I did find myself falling into conversations with college graduates and even current college students that made me ponder.

Is it worth it? Should I be so afraid?

After a conversation with a camp leader I was working with at my church, I decided to do it. I signed up for my community college and spent my first semester full of stress, anxiety, and varying degrees of low self-esteem.

But I did it.

And now I'm here, less than one semester away from my Associate's. (Still working on balancing my creative life with my responsibilities, but so far so good!)

Here's how I survive intimidating situations and embrace my fear...

Acknowledge your fear

Ignorance never helped anyone.

Sometimes we will protect ourselves from fear so we don't have to acknowledge we're afraid. It sucks having to constantly go, "Oh look another thing to add to my list of fears" so our brains will go maybe if we don't acknowledge it, we won't feel so bad anymore!

EHHHHH

Wrong.

We'll still avoid the public situations, the new people, the decision-making, the steps toward independence, if we don't look at our fears, head on.

And yes, sometimes we don't know we're afraid. We hide it so well, even our own selves can't pick up on it.

But how to acknowledge our fears when we can't even recognize them?

Look at what you naturally avoid. Look at what makes you go LOL I AM NOT DOING THAT AGAIN.

You could make a fear list with actions you can do to combat your fears.

Pick your battles

Time after time, I've refused to try new things for fear of failing and looking like an idiot in front of other people. I realized this about myself when one of the kids I babysit offered me the remote to a little green hovercraft. My brain screamed NO NO YOU CAN'T DO IT YOU'LL CRASH IT YOU'LL BREAK IT YOU'LL--

Wait a second.

Was I really scared to fly a toy? Because I was afraid of what these kids would think? Because maybe I would crash it?

You bet I took the remote and flew that thing.

It's little situations like that where you have to be aware of your thoughts and fears. At that moment, I found victory against one of my fears and safely flew a little hovercraft. It may sound silly, but to discover I was holding myself back and then choose to breakthrough, adding another win to look back on, is very inspiring.

I don't recommend going full out and attempting to "cure" yourself of your fears in one fell swoop. You'll burn out. Instead, choose your battles wisely.

Don't aim to win all the time.

Aim to win the majority of the time.


Learn to fight the little voice in your head

We each have a voice that lives in our head. For a majority of us, it's rather loud and rings through your skull. "You can be doing more. You could be more productive if you didn't enroll in school. You can't get a degree without going to school. Why are you so lazy? Why are you trying so hard?"

It goes on and on and on in an exhausting loop that drains you of your willpower, motivation, and strength.

But the thing is, that little voice isn't always right. And I can help you turn that little voice off. Learn all the details here.

Take critiques (even the ones that hurt)

Whether these critiques are directed toward your work or someone else's, apply them. They will improve your approach to your work and help you grow faster as a creator, a student, or any other role you must step into.

It's also best not to take these critiques personally, something I still struggle with. Usually, when someone is trying to help you improve, it is not a judgment of your character but a suggestion for how you can better yourself when you try next time. Take hold of this opportunity to learn and grow.

Dive in (Feel the fear and do it anyway)

DO NOT WAIT FOR PERMISSION. I repeat, do not wait for permission. Sign up for the class; open the door; buy the supplies; do it alone it you have to.

You're thinking "but I must analyze it, I must make sure this is the right thing for me" -- but if it's been stuck on your mind for weeks and months, and you still haven't done it... you still crave to know if it's worth your time...

Do it.

Leap and then look.

It will be uncomfortable, because the water is never the right temperature when you plunge in. Sure, you may flail a little bit. But your friends sit nearby in a little paddle boat, cheering you on. Your family awaits with a life jacket.

You are not alone.

You will survive the dive, no matter what may come of it.

Please. At least try.



Remember, anyone can learn to...

Fill in the blank with what intimidates you.

Paint. Sew. Run a scientific experiment. Travel abroad. Publish a book. Speak out about your mental health journey. Attend graduate school.

For me, it's drawing -- anything that has to do with holding a creative utensil in my hand and creating lines across a paper or canvas.

IT SCARES ME.

Why? Because of the numerous times I've "failed" to depict something in my brain and put it down on paper. But right now, I'm taking a drawing class. I'm learning how to hone my artistic eye, take the critiques, and work through the fear.

My hands may shake every time I put the pencil to the paper, but I know I am capable -- I just have to make the first line, persevere, and apply what I learned last time.


What are you scared of?

Whether this fear is old or new, takes a little or a lot to overcome, please know this: I believe in you. Miraculous things are ahead on your journey to bravery.

The Vincent van Gogh Lookbook

The older I get, the more I realize how much I express myself through my clothing.

I love surfing Instagram and Pinterest for outfit inspiration -- and then using my own clothes to create a similar style but in my own tastes.

But I don't normally profess that. So why today?

This post is not only a little bit outside my "niche" but also a little outside my comfort zone. For some reason, I fear that I will lose readers if I stray too much from the self-help or creative content I usually strive for (even if it's something I am passionate about or something that pertains to my interests). That's why I wanted to do write this post and take pictures in the freezing cold. I want to step outside my comfort zone and express myself. Isn't that why I started TPP in the first place?

Look #1: Rosie attempts to be edgy






The Look:

  • Yellow Kanken sent to me by my #1 fan
  • "You are my sunshine." tee designed by @mostees
  • Black denim Lee jeans, thrifted
  • Red socks from MailChimp
  • Doc Marten combat boots with yellow laces
  • Belt and blue jacket were also thrifted

Look #2: In which Rosie doesn't have a personal photographer available



Please enjoy my attempt at a model expression and my #aesthetic background. Just keeping it real for you. ;)

  • Starry night tee from Amazon
  • Thrifted black long sleeve shirt
  • Black super high waisted jeans from JC Penney's
  • Docs with yellow laces
  • Red Mailchimp socks
  • Thrifted black belt

Look #3: The dark corner of Starry Night





  • Plaid skirt thrifted (brand is Forever 21)
  • Blue sweatshirt
  • Docs with yellow laces
  • Sheer black tights
  • Thrifted denim jacket

Look #4: I am Vincent


  • Thrifted plaid men's button up
  • Thrifted men's jeans
  • Thrifted black belt

My lesson for you today: Dress however you want.

As you can see, my style doesn't fit inside one aesthetic, but bridges many. It's taken me a long time to get to the place where I feel okay dressing in the way I want to. And then feel really good in my clothes too. Sometimes there will be a voice in the back of my head, telling me not to wear "boyish" clothes because, with my haircut, I'm already leaning into that territory. However, I won't allow this fear to stop me from wearing clothes that make me feel good.

What are some of your favorite clothing items?

What's your style? What are your favorite colors to wear? Function or fashion? Are your clothes an expression or simply something to wear throughout the day? I'd love to know.

What's in My Backpack (College, Fjallraven Kanken)

My Kanken is the backpack of my dreams.

It's aesthetic. It's waterproof and a lovely yellow color. Instead of making me feel like I'm lugging around a bunch of heavy school materials, it makes me feel like I'm transporting sunshine (and lots of it -- textbooks are heavy!)

Quick shoutout to Mackenzie for sending this to me for my birthday! I'm so thankful to finally have the backpack of my dreams. <3


The bag:




Dimensions (Original size):
  • Height: 38 cm (almost 15 in.)
  • Width: 27 cm (just under 10 3/4 in.)
  • Depth: 13 cm (just under 5 1/4 in.)

I'll be honest. When I first saw this bag, I was pretty sure it wouldn't serve me well *. My original backpack had pockets upon pockets (that I didn't use, mind you) so I was worried when I first opened up the square zipper and peaked into the empty abyss below.

HOWEVER.

It's big enough to house A LOT of stuff. I can carry my water bottle with me in the side pocket, tons of notebooks, textbooks, and little bags containing supplies, as well as miscellaneous items that I think I need but never use.

* Though, let's be real here -- I still wanted it because it's just pretty. <3_<3

What's in the front pocket:



My front pocket is the place where I store all my "this doesn't quite have a place anywhere else because I don't use it enough" slash "when I do need it, it needs to be easily accessible".
  • Google Pixel headphones
  • Hand sanitizer (very nice to have)
  • Glasses wipe
  • Cough drop
  • Pizza pin
  • Feminine products holder
  • Little mirror
  • Band-aids

The main compartment:



Normally I don't take my laptop with me (just because my schedule doesn't quite allow me enough downtime to get any work on it, plus half my classes are very hands-on and the others I like to stay focused). But if I needed to take it, it would fit.

Can you see all those notebooks and that textbook? I could cram more in here if I wanted to (or needed to) which makes me think that in the future when I go on summer adventures, I will have plenty of room to bring along all the stuff I may need.

My pencil case:



This semester I'm taking an art class, hence the charcoal, kneaded erasers, and abundance of black markers. I also have this thing where I'm paranoid about needing a pencil -- and being able to provide others with pencils -- so that's why I have a million of those. Otherwise, I keep my favorite pen and a yellow highlighter for taking notes during lectures. Also, the chapstick is nice to have with me on these brutally cold winter days when I have to walk between classes. Brrr.

My wallet:



I absolutely love my wallet. It has a strap (not pictured here) that gives me the ability to turn it into a crossbody -- which will be super nice on the days when it gets warmer and I won't be able to keep it stored in my jacket pocket, or if I know I'll need to hands-free. But the majority of the time, it remains an adorable wristlet.

As you can see, I keep my Kanken pretty minimalistic. This is because I'm the type of person who really doesn't want to carry more than I have to (it's hard to carry a heavy backpack around campus) and I don't want to waste my time digging through all the stuff in my bag. BUT if I wanted to, I could carry so much more with me.

My overall impressions of the Original Kanken:

I LOVE IT! Like I mentioned, I was concerned with the lack of compartments and extra places to store things, but simply having a main compartment and a small front pocket has helped me pare down what I take with me and how I divide it all up. Overall, this backpack isn't just beautiful but functional as well. :)

What's in your backpack?

Are you like me and tend to overpack so you're prepared for anything? Or are you more of a minimalist? What do you carry with you on a day to day basis? Do you have a Kanken? Do you want a Kanken? What color would you get it in?

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